One Step at a time...

With a new year comes a fresh start. This is my third blog. I always get into blogging but then life gets in the way and time passes me by and the next thing I know, it's been years since I last posted. I want this blog to be different. The same way I want this year to be different. I want to do more of the things I love in 2015. One thing that I love with great passion is writing. So why don't I make more time for it in my life? I could have picked up where I left off on my old blog but I just couldn't do it. I thought of deleting old posts but you really can't delete the past. I had a lot of dark stuff on my last blog. I have been though a lot in my life. I will admit, I let things get to me. For the past 6 years I have been dealing with depression. Sometimes its worse than other times but depression is depression. I have had terrible thoughts and I really wish I never felt that way. I don't wish that on even my worst enemy. I have struggled with self-image issues, as most of us women do, and that is just something I am so tired of. I have loved and lost two times and I have spent way to much time being sad over things that I thought were so important. The truth is, people enter your life for a reason. Whether it is for a short time, a long time, or even forever, they still come with a purpose. If you lose certain people, you shouldn't waste time thinking what you did wrong or why you aren't good enough because you are more than enough. You are amazing! Destiny just didn't have plans for this person to be in your life for the long run. I understand that now. I want to live each day to the fullest. I want to be happy. I want to be productive. I want to realize that I am beautiful. There is no other person in this entire world who is like me. I am completely unique in this life and no one can take that away from me. I want to embrace every part of myself. I want to see that even my flaws are flawless. You should surround yourself with people who lift you up and make you happy and make you feel good about yourself and your life. But you can't just depend on others to do those things for you. You have to do them for yourself. Everyday you should wake up, thank God that you are here to live another day, and remind yourself just how incredible you really are. Sometimes you are just going to have a really shitty day. That's just the way life goes. But you cannot let that one day describe your whole life. If you have a bad day and just need to have a good cry and eat some ice cream in your pajamas, then do it! But remember that the sun will come out tomorrow and you have a brand new day to make the best out of. So to end this blog post I want to tell you what my New Years Resolutions are. I want 2015 to be an amazing year full of new experiences and lots of positivity. I want to treat my body better. I want to eat more healthy foods and exercise more often. I know those sound like the typical resolutions but for me it's different. I am not worried about the number on the scale because the scale can't tell me how good of a person I am. The scale can't tell me how good I look in a new outfit. The scale only tells you a number that doesn't define who I am. But I know that I just want to be healthier so I can continue feeling better about myself. A healthy lifestyle will give me more energy, confidence, and most importantly, endorphins! As I mentioned in the beginning of the blog, I want to do more of the things I love: writing, dancing, spending time with people I care about, and trying new things. I am going to try my absolute hardest to procrastinate less with everything in life. One thing that I have always wanted to do is to learn how to speak Spanish and I am not going to put that on hold any longer. In 2015, I am going to do my very best to learn the language. It has taken 21 years, but I think I am finally becoming the person I was meant to be. I hope you guys will come on this journey with me and read my blog and leave comments and ask me questions and just try your best to live a positive life as well. You are the only person standing in your way of true happiness.

Just in case no one has told you yet today, you are beautiful!
Love, Lex ♥